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First of all, I have no right to tell you you cannot see Dad. However, too many people are already planning on being there during surgery. I would ask that you refrain from visiting until after the surgery. If, during that time, we run into each other, I will be civil, create no scene, but don't expect any conversation. What is in the past is in the past & I have moved on with my life and am quite happy as it is.

I just received this a few minutes ago. I'm not really sure how I feel right now. At least he didn't leave me hanging...
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How interesting is it that my daily reading from Hazelden (that is usually in my inbox before I get out of bed) was late today and arrived after I received my father's response? I don't think I can add anything to it; it says exactly what I know, but needed to hear.

Today's thought is:

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
--Eleanor Roosevelt

In this moment, we are the best we can be. Today, we can work at loving the best in ourselves and not fearing the worst. We are truly wonderful and growing people with gifts and qualities that make us who we are. No one can make us feel inferior without our consent.

Now, we are in charge of our lives and growth. We can choose to let go of old negative thinking. We can choose to think positive, loving thoughts about ourselves. We never need to be victims again to addiction or to other people. We have options today. We can choose to grow in a positive recovery program. We can choose to have loving, affirming people in our lives.

Today I will stick with the winners. I am a winner today and every day.

You are reading from the book:
Our Best Days by Nancy Hull-Mast

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I forgot I'd put my copy of A Cherokee Feast of Days in my bag after reading today's reading in the parking lot at work this morning. It spoke directly to where I was at that time and now.

March 22

Everything in the world cannot be judged by one mistake. When we have fallen short or someone seems to have failed us, we can leave it there where it happened. There is no use in stirring old trouble into every new thing we do. There are things that seem to break out heart; pain that goes on and on. But we can work through. If we are strong and don't let our hands grow weak and slack, our work will be rewarded. We grieve for the loss of things, or persons, ache for what we cannot do, but there is a day when the sun finally shines. We can make it. Time heals more quickly when we decide to let it. It is written that any man can make a mistake, but none but a fool will continue in it. This is a new day; live it fully.

The Great Spirit Chief who rules above all will smile upon this land...and this time the Indian race is waiting and praying.
--Chief Joseph